By Lois Hewitt

It’s been a while since I posted anything.  I figured that I would just stop, thought maybe I didn’t have anything of use to say.  But I have been asked to continue, so let’s catch up.

If you have read past posts, you know I was diagnosed with a rare and aggressive cancer which started in my uterus.  I had a total hysterectomy after Hurricane Helene hit. 

My next CT scan was ordered for March 17 and that’s where we are at.  I forgot a little tidbit, about 7 weeks ago I developed shingles on my face.  Oh my the pain.  Luckily, my eye is ok.  Take shingles seriously,  it’s been very difficult to maneuver.

Back to the CT, I was pretty sure that I had beat the cancer, but it has come back and quicker than my oncologist expected.  The prognosis isn’t great, but I start chemotherapy next Monday as a way to halt the spread and give me some more time.

I won’t lie, I am scared to death.  But after a few days full of self pity, I have decided to finally fall at the feet of Jesus and let Him take control.

I walked around a few months ago so arrogant thinking I beat this disease.  Then came the shingles and I realized that I am not in control of any of this.  It is all in Jesus’ hands.

We, humans, can get so arrogant and forget that there is a plan in place.  I have been making plans and lists for months and none have come to fruition.  I take it as a sign to surrender it all to Jesus and I will follow His lead.

I don’t know what the future will bring, but then no one does.  That’s why it’s so important to have a strong footing on the only foundation that won’t shift.

Today I sit at the feet of Jesus and listen for Him to guide me.  There is no better or safer place to be than in His arms.