Pathetic as it may be, this is my wish board.
This is going to sound idiotic, but I never understood the purpose of a wish. I get that when you wish for something you are asking for something in particular or some other tangible item that you do not currently have. It could also be something intangible like a superpower or the like. But when you wish, who are you talking to? It is not a prayer like to God, so who is listening to all these wishes? I am so confused.
In my last career position, we had a corporate strategy meeting where we all added ideas to a wish board. I was new to the concept and found it intriguing. Everyone contributed ideas about how to make the company better for employees and customers as well as stronger financially. There were no wrong ideas, so we were all free to add things that would have been considered over-the-top in a regular corporate meeting atmosphere. Then the best-of-the-best were picked and added to a wish board that hung in the lobby as a reminder of where we wanted to take the company.
I have to admit I snickered a little under my breath at the idea. Then after one particularly desperate day, I thought I would make my own wish board (I actually called it a dream board, but I believe they are the same thing). It was way harder to do it for things I wanted in my life, there was no real out-of-box thinking. The reason, I think, for that is because it is my life and I know I am never hitting the road with Bad Company or shredding down a mountain slope on a snowboard. Not happening, so I felt the need to be a little more realistic.
I purposely used a smaller sheet of paper because I wanted everything on my list to be of importance to me. I started with a picture of a tiny house. I have wanted a tiny house for years. I have read the books about the lifestyle and watched the television shows. I am having doubts about it becoming a reality for me, but I put it out there as my foundation. So, let’s just call it the fact that I want to live with a much smaller footprint whether it be a small apartment or a tiny home. Smaller is really the key for the base of my board.
Then came what to do with my life. I would like to work from home as a writer. Yet, another thing that might not be in my future. I am going to write no matter what, but I cannot see it paying rent or feeding me. But again, it is the foundation for all of this. I really think I should not be negative at this point, but I am also very realistic. Unfortunately. I used to dream big, but life sort of took that ability away from me. Too negative? Maybe. This concept is harder than it seems.
Since I do not see a New York Times Bestseller in my immediate future, I need a job. I just want a job that I am trained to do and one that I love. I want to feel like I am making a difference and supporting myself in the process. Having not “worked” at a regular job for a while, I have to admit the thing I hated about a regular job is the thing I miss the most. The structure or you could call it having a purpose (that sounds much better). I need that sense of on-going purpose.
Tiny footprint, writing and purpose. Good start. A few other things that followed included: daily Bible study, volunteering, consistent exercise, frugal living, eating clean and making my own food as much as I can and my own cleaning products. That is basically my dream board. Funny, how when I put it this way, I see that I actually have some control over these factors. Not really wish material (other than the tiny home). So, do I not understand the concept after all? I am still so confused.
What about my wanderlust? I still want to continue the Epic Journey, but it needs to be thought out better. I never realized just how expensive a journey like that would be (I could never have done it without your support), or how grueling it would be. I need to take some time and reconsider the remaining portion of the trip. It will happen, I promise. I just need to regroup.
What about home/farm stays? I am struggling with my true abilities to do this type of work. The past 53 years of my life have done nothing to prepare me for this particular lifestyle. I feel useless at times and that just plain makes me sad. Another thing I need to rethink.
To sum it all up, my wish board is more like at To Do List. I can keep wishing for these things but without taking action, they will never happen. Getting back to my original thought, I guess I really do not understand the concept of what a wish is for. Do you go into a wish knowing it is just a pipe dream or somewhere in the back of your mind, do you think it could happen? What happens when you wait and wait and the wish does not come to pass? Seems to me wishes are pathways to be disilllusioned.
I think I will put my wish board away somewhere and turn it into my To Do List. That is concrete and measurable. I will leave the wishes to others. I honestly wish I could believe in the power of wishes, but I guess I am too pragmatic.
Here is to a healthy and attainable To Do List for those of us who are uncontrollably realistic…
and here is to those lovely souls who have dreams and wishes, may they become real and change your life in a way that adds more light to the darkness of this world.