Happy New Year!!!! Well, it is now 2020…a brand new decade. As I do every New Year, I write down my resolutions for the coming year. By about this time in January, I have already set them aside and forgot about them. This year I hope is a little different. When you are 20 or 30 and thinking about the changes you want to make, you think you have time. No need to rush. But as you get closer to 60, as I am, I realize if I want to make some changes, this is the time. I need to take the ideals more seriously.
The most important ideal I want to do this year is have a heart of gratitude. I have SO many things to be thankful for. In my misspent youth, I felt guilty for anything good that happened because I felt I did not deserve it. I would purposely trip myself up in an attempt to alleviate the guilt. Now that I am older, I want to be grateful for everything. Even the not-so-great things as they help make a person who they are. So this year, once a week, I am going to write a letter to someone in my life who has influenced me and just say thank you. We do not say thank you enough in our world today. I have many things to say thank you for and many people who helped me throughout my life.
I also want to learn sign language, how to knit, and how to play the guitar. I want to read more and take some courses online. I want to read the entire New Testament this year. I want to eat better and exercise more. I want this to be a healthy year. I am so tired of being sick and tired. Cut down on sugar, fat and (the hardest thing of all) hamburgers. More fruits and vegetables. I am no longer young enough to overcome bad eating habits. I also need to start saving more money and being more frugal. Those are tall orders, I know, but I need to step up my game. I cannot live by the seat of my pants any longer.
I want to strive for more peace and less drama. More quiet time and less useless noise. More calm and less anger. More joy and less depression. I know things happen, life is like that. Everything is going along nicely and out of nowhere life hits you. I am not expecting that I can dodge those bullets, but I hope I can be better prepared for the unexpected.
Basically, I want to become the person I have been working to be all these years. I always had an idea of who I wanted to be, but never had the discipline or the motive to become her. Now is the time. I am sure I will fall short. I try not to let other people down, but I am the first one to let myself down. I hope this decade, I have a little more respect for myself.
I am grateful for this blog. It is my therapy. I can work things out as I write. It is cathartic. Writing is good for me, maybe I will do it a little more. It is one constant in my life I have always loved. Who knows, maybe this is the year of my book????!!!!
As the new year starts, I want to thank everyone who reads my crazy musings and lives my ups and downs with me. I could write just for myself, but I sure enjoy hearing from you. I am blessed in so many ways. Without the Internet, no one would ever have read any of my writings. I sure have enjoyed writing about this crazy ride. I hope this year brings a few more good stories and ideas. Thank you everyone again!!
May your year be full of health, love, joy, peace and true happiness!! Here’s to 2020!! ROCK ON!!