By Lois Hewitt
Oh, what a week it was! Full of stress and my ineptitude ever showing. Sometimes I just feel like I’m in over my head! That was this week.
So after work I scurried home quite quickly fighting the badly parked cars on my road along with a few errant garbage cans. I parked and ran down the steps to my basement apartment.
There is a huge advantage to living in a basement apartment that faces the back yard rather than the road…it’s so quiet you tend to forget the other lives outside the door.
My personal life policy, for the most part, is that I will partake in a normal life during the week, but go into full-on hermit mode on the weekends.
I am easily overwhelmed with small talk, answering the phone and other human-to-human contacts. I like people, I really do, but my personality only allows for a certain amount of interactions before I experience stress.
So yesterday, I scampered down the stairs to my apartment, quickly changed into my sleeping outfit and jumped into bed and covered my head for an hour or two as a way to decompress.
I eventually gathered the strength to get up, do a few chores and make dinner.
Dinner was almost ready and we usually have a cup of coffee with dinner on Friday night. It is us being wild and throwing caution to the wind.
The sun had set by this time, there was a glorious yellow-orange glow emanating from behind the mountains. As I walked out onto our deck, to drop the old coffee grounds off the edge, I stood longer than usual.
The only artificial light in the backyard is our Christmas tree lights (yes it stays up all year) and the warm glow of lights from the neighbors
windows.
We live on a quiet street but are close to the highway. I could hear traffic zooming along the highway off in the distance. We are also close to a train track and occasionally we are serenaded by the ryhthmic sounds of a passing locomotive.
As I stood outside, I realized that there is an entire world that is in continuos motion that has absolutely nothing to do with me.
I thought about the people going to work overnight or those people who were on a date. I thought about friends meeting for dinner and drinks. I thought about the people on their way to visit family or friends. And I thought about the people who were lonely and struggling.
I like to lock myself away on the weekends. Curtains drawn. Door locked. An island unto myself as I do my cooking and cleaning. I sometimes, if only momentarily, forget about the world that is pressing on all around me.
When my parents and sister passed away, I was reminded that the world waits for no one. It keeps moving always in perpetual motion. So even when I get off the roller coaster of life, even if only for a day or two, the ride continues.
I am not sure why those thoughts appeared in my consciousness last night but I felt they arrived for a reason.
Jesus knew the importance of time away from the crowds. He knew His battery needed time to recharge in order for Him to function at full capacity but He never forgot the needs that were all around Him. His life on this earth, albeit a relatively short time, is a good example to follow.
It is good practice to take care of yourself, to set boundaries (even if those around you may not like it), and to get away in the quiet to pray or take care of your needs. We are called to that.
We are also called to take part in the world around us. To see a view more than just ourselves.
My visit to the back deck last night was a reminder that I should take care of myself but not to the exclusion of the needs that surround me.
We are called to be the Light in a dark world. That’s a big ask, but it is necessary as the culture encompasses more darkness. Just like the majestic light from behind the mountains transforms the night sky, so must we shed light on the world around us.
Just remember it is necessary to hide away at times to recharge and reinvigorate. It is a balancing act, and one I am still trying to maneuver. It’s not necessarily easy but, then again, the easy path is not always the desired path.